Can you please stop hating

Chapter 165 Longevity

After returning home, the two quickly packed up and went straight to bed to sleep.

It was still early and he didn't feel too sleepy even after turning off the lights and lying down, but Jin Zhuoxiao was very well behaved even though he didn't fall asleep.

He just hugged Yu Xi from behind and did nothing else.

The bedroom was very quiet. In the darkness, Yu Xi closed her eyes, but she was thinking more and more clearly about Yu Li in her mind.

Today is the fifteenth day of the twelfth lunar month, her and Yu Li’s birthday. They haven’t celebrated it for many years since Yu Li passed away.

The last time they celebrated was eight years ago, when they were only twelve years old. It was also on that birthday that Yu Li gave her a silver bracelet as a birthday gift.

Unfortunately, the good times did not last long. A year later, Yu Li died in an accident.

Yu Xi always felt that it was she who should die, not Yu Li, so every year on her birthday, she didn’t think about how old she should be, but how old Yu Li should be.

Time has not diluted this pain. On the contrary, the older I get, the more sad I feel.

This day every year is particularly heavy for Yu Xi.

Yu Xiben thought she could keep all her emotions to herself without changing her expression, but she didn't expect Pei Jingtong would also have a birthday today, and she even bought a cake to celebrate.

Their joyful scene made Yu Xi's deliberately calm emotions collapse a little, and her already depressed mood became extremely sad.

Her longing for Yu Li was like a spring that had hit bottom. Once the pressure was removed, it bounced back instantly.

Yu Xi's mind is now full of Yu Li, Yu Li, Yu Li. The more she thinks about it, the sadder she becomes, but she can't help but think about it. She is like a balloon that is constantly inflated by negative emotions, at risk of exploding at any time.

At this moment, a call suddenly came from Yu Xi's cell phone, emitting a dazzling light and sound in the darkness.

She opened her eyes, adjusted to the light, picked up her phone, and saw that the caller ID was Chen Wen.

After hesitating for a moment, Yu Xi turned on the bedside lamp and prepared to get out of bed to answer it, but before she sat up, the hand on her waist suddenly tightened.

Her back bumped into a warm, firm chest, and she heard Jin Zhuoxiao's deep voice coming from behind her: "Take it here."

"..."

Yu Xi knew that Jin Zhuoxiao had probably seen the caller ID, but she didn't think there was any need to avoid Jin Zhuoxiao, so she didn't resist. She lay down and answered the phone, "Hello?"

"Xixi, happy birthday."

Chen Wen's voice came clearly through the phone.

Yu Xi's eyes were sore. In the past, her parents would only celebrate for Yu Li, and she even got the cake from Yu Li.

At that time, only Yu Li and Chen Wen would celebrate her birthday and say happy birthday to her. After Yu Li passed away, only Chen Wen was left.

Yu Xi took a deep breath, suppressed her emotions and said, "Thank you."

Chen Wen: "How have you been recently?"

Hearing this, Yu Xi felt aggrieved, her eyes gradually moistened, she pursed her lips and said, "Very good."

Chen Wen: "Take good care of yourself outside. If you have any difficulties, remember to contact me."

"Well," Yu Xi wiped her eyes, afraid of revealing a flaw, and said simply, "Brother Wen, I have something else to do, so I'll hang up first."

Chen Wen: “Okay.”

After hanging up the phone, Yu Xi couldn't control her emotions anymore and tears silently flowed from her eyes.

Jin Zhuoxiao heard their conversation clearly. When he saw the call was over, he sat up and asked, "Why didn't you tell me earlier that it's your birthday today?"

"..."

Yu Xi did not answer him.

Jin Zhuoxiao frowned and turned Yu Xi over, only to find that she was crying. He asked in surprise, "Why are you crying?"

Yu Xi didn't answer, but her tears flowed faster and faster.

Seeing this, Jin Zhuoxiao hugged her in his arms, stopped asking questions, and just gently stroked her back.

Yu Xi immediately cried even harder, all her emotions pouring out like a flood, unable to contain them.

Jin Zhuoxiao had already noticed that Yu Xi was in a low mood, and knew that it would be a good thing for her to cry now, so he did not disturb her.

The two of them hugged each other like this. After a long time, Yu Xi finally calmed down a little, but her body was still shaking because of sobbing.

Jin Zhuoxiao took a tissue from the table, wiped her tears, and said gently: "Tell me, what happened?"

Yu Xi felt very depressed, and the current atmosphere made her want to speak her mind.

She took a slow breath, touched the silver bracelet with her palm, and slowly choked out, "My brother and I are twins. Today is both of our birthdays."

There was a flash of surprise in Jin Zhuoxiao's eyes, and then he became worried.

"If I hadn't been craving for candied haws that day, my brother wouldn't have gotten into an accident while trying to protect me. It's all my fault. Today should have been his twentieth birthday, but he's gone now. I have no right to celebrate."

As Yu Xi spoke, tears started to flow again.

Jin Zhuoxiao finally understood why Yu Xi was so depressed. He wiped away her tears and said distressedly, "Your brother protects you because he wants you to live well. He definitely doesn't want to see you blaming yourself for him."

"I know, but I don't really want to live. If I can exchange my life for his, I will definitely give him the chance to live."

Yu Xi collapsed to the extreme, her voice trembling with tears: "I really miss him, why wasn't I the one who died in the first place?"

Jin Zhuoxiao suddenly felt a little flustered. He hugged Yu Xi tightly and said in a nervous and stiff voice: "Yu Xi, don't say such things. Your brother risked his life to protect you. You must cherish him."

Yu Xi buried her head in Jin Zhuoxiao's shoulder and burst into tears.

Yu Xi had been holding back her emotions for too long that night, but after she said what was in her heart, it was like removing a stone blocking a water outlet, and she felt much smoother.

After she finished crying, her emotions gradually calmed down, but she looked like a hollowed-out doll, lifeless and as if she had lost her soul.

Yu Xi pushed Jin Zhuoxiao away, lowered her head, and said in a hoarse voice: "Thank you for comforting me, I'm fine."

Jin Zhuoxiao frowned as he looked at her current appearance, not feeling at all relieved: "Yu Xi, the dead cannot be resurrected. If you stay in the past, you will only be in trouble. You still have a long life ahead of you, you must look forward."

Yu Xi drooped her eyelids and did not answer.

"My mother had a difficult labor when she gave birth to me, and we both almost died. My father asked for this jade Buddha from the temple. My mother and I each have one to bless our safety. Now I give it to you."

Jin Zhuoxiao took off the jade Buddha pendant, tied it around Yu Xi's neck, and said, "Yu Xi, happy birthday, may you live a long life."

Yu Xi looked at the jade Buddha on her neck and felt a pang of sadness in her heart. No wonder Jin Zhuoxiao cared so much about her.

She raised her eyes to look at Jin Zhuoxiao and said, "Jin Zhuoxiao, I want to drink."

Jin Zhuoxiao was silent for two seconds, then compromised and said, "It's in the refrigerator."

The alcohol content of the beer was not high, but Yu Xi could still guzzle it. Jin Zhuoxiao knew she was feeling uncomfortable, but he didn't stop her.

After a while, Yu Xi was already drunk.

She lay on the table, mumbling, "Jin Zhuoxiao, it's really tiring to work for others."

Jin Zhuoxiao: "..."