Half in the river wind, half in the clouds

Chapter 161 When will the fun begin?

When Jiang Feng woke up, he saw Li Longye sitting beside the bed.

For a moment I thought time was going backwards.

When they just returned to Chang'an from Luoyang, Li Longye once paid her a surprise visit. When she woke up, he sat by her bed, just like he did today.

Jiang Feng asked: "Did grandma let you in again?"

Li Longye's eyes were warm and he nodded.

Jiang Feng asked again: "Did mother go to burn incense and fulfill her vow? Did sister-in-law go back to her parents' home?"

Li Longye then realized that she was talking about their last meeting at Jiang's house.

At that time, he was about to be exiled, and was constrained in every way by the affairs of the court. He was overwhelmed, but when he had some free time, he still came to see her. He didn't say a few words and left in a hurry.

Thinking of this, he smiled and said, "I am here for a serious visit this time."

Jiang Feng sat up, his hair cascading down like a waterfall, and said sarcastically, "They must be so happy that you're here, right?"

Li Longye did not answer, but asked: "Aren't you happy?"

Jiang Feng said: "Someone once said 'Don't be happy with things, don't be sad with yourself', I can't be that open-minded. So when happiness comes, I can only try not to be too proud and happy, so as not to be too disappointed when happiness is gone."

Li Longye frowned and thought for a while, then asked, "Then, when will we be happy?"

Jiang Feng asked back, "Excessive happiness leads to sorrow. I don't expect extreme happiness, nor do I want to be away from extreme pain. I just want to live a plain and simple life."

Li Longye knew that she was not a blind optimist. When she was successful, she was always rational and cautious. When she was frustrated, she was brave and fearless, always believing that she would bounce back.

The two hadn't seen each other for nearly three months. Li Longye had a lot to ask, but the first thing he said was: "Did you miss me?"

Jiang Feng looked at Li Longye and said seriously, "I have thought about it this time. But if I leave someone alone for two or three months again, I will always find a way to stop myself from thinking about it."

Naturally, Li Longye was also homesick for her during these three months. He had to control his urge to see her and finally waited until Shen Guxing was defeated.

Then he said, "I thought you knew why I didn't come to see you."

Jiang Feng still said calmly: "Of course I know."

Seeing Li Longye's puzzled expression, Jiang Feng continued, "In the palace, the prince saw me and him being intimate, and he became suspicious, so he stabbed him with a sword. Later, Shen Guxing and the county lady divorced. Do you think I would definitely turn around and choose to be with him again?"

Li Longye was silent for a long time before he said, "You two separated at the beginning because Shen Guxing had no choice. He was deeply in love with you, and you also couldn't forget him."

Jiang Feng smiled, with the corners of his mouth curved in a subtle arc. It was clearly a helpless smile, but Li Longye actually saw some sarcasm in it.

Jiang Feng said, "So Lord Xue, you are so noble and upright that you would withdraw from the party and help us both?"

This time the irony is at its peak.

Li Longye's expression also turned serious, and he said, "In Fenglingjin, I took the initiative to withdraw once, and I regret it every day. I swear, I will never let go again!"

Jiang Feng didn't believe it. He looked into his eyes and said "Oh?" in complete disbelief.

Since you won't let go, what's the meaning of ignoring me for the past three months?

Could it be that you still have the leisure time to play tricks that only make things more obvious?

Li Longye pulled Jiang Feng's arm, held her hand, and said, "Shen Guxing insisted on divorce despite the disapproval of the world. Even my father couldn't persuade him. This shows how determined he is to you. But I know you will never wait for him again. Even if there is no appointment in Luoyang between us, you are still a wild flower without a master, and you will never look back."

Jiang Feng had tears in his eyes: "You clearly knew it! And you still..."

There was a hint of naivety in the complaining tone.

Li Longye was pleased and said, "But Shen Guxing doesn't understand! Now that the misunderstanding between you has been resolved, he knows that you still have feelings for him, so he naturally wants to reconcile with you. If I still see you and stay with you every day, he will only think that you are forced by me and are not willing to follow me."

Jiang Feng asked: "Do you trust me so much? You disappeared for three months. If I just thought you abandoned me and then went back to look for him, it would be a good choice."

Emotionally, Li Longye was of course afraid, extremely afraid!

But rationally, he comforted himself again and again that Jiang Feng would never choose Shen Guxing again.

At this moment, Jiang Feng, even if she became a nun like the Princess of Ji'an County, even if she chose Guan Shanyun, or married to Youzhou, she would never look back.

For him, no matter which path she took, it would have nothing to do with Shen Guxing, so he should be happy.

But he was full of worries and even drank to drown his sorrows.

Because he understood Jiang Feng's psychology, his refusal to choose was not because he didn't love him, but because he loved him too much.

In her heart, Shen Guxing is different from everyone else.

He hated himself for understanding her too well.

And she hated that she had promised her heart to him.

Li Longye was conflicted, helpless, and worried about gains and losses!

So, he clearly knew that the two of them just bumped into each other accidentally that night, and he clearly guessed Jiang Feng's decision after that.

But he still remained calm and did not take any action.

Of course, Jiang Feng was just as he thought: he and Shen Guxing had a clear distinction.

Just as he expected, if he didn't look for her, she would never take the initiative to look for him.

Thinking of this, Li Longye said: "How can I feel at ease! I worry every day that you will be snatched away by someone."

Jiang Feng said: "I dare not say that I am determined. But I dare say that I made my own choice and no one else can influence me. Since I have chosen the prince, whether others live or die, good or bad, has nothing to do with me! But if one day, we can't go on, then it can only be a problem between us."

Li Longye was startled, and then he understood what Jiang Feng meant.

He had a lot of messy thoughts, but in Jiang Feng's eyes, things were extremely simple. It was all just a matter between him and Jiang Feng.

Whether the two people trust each other and have no suspicion.

If there is a misunderstanding, can we clarify it instead of using cold violence?

In the face of various difficulties, can we work together and face them together?

The truth is simple and will lead to success in everything.

Li Longye was silent.

Jiang Feng added: "Although I guessed that this was a chance for the prince to give me to make a new choice. But this process is really difficult. If..."

"Your Highness!" Li Bian interrupted their conversation outside the door.

Li Longye looked displeased, but Jiang Feng knew that Li Bei was always prudent and would definitely not call anyone for no reason.

Then he stopped talking.

Li Longye asked: "What's the matter?"

Li Xian seemed to hesitate for a moment, then replied, "Urgent news from the border. His Majesty was furious upon hearing this, and ordered the Crown Prince and several other princes to come to the palace immediately to make a report."

Li Longye sighed and said to the outside: "I need to delay for a while, you and Fourth Brother... forget it, you go and talk to the Crown Prince."

Li Bian hesitated for a while before replying, "His Royal Highness the Crown Prince has also sent someone to invite the Prince. I'm afraid..."

Li Longye had no choice but to say, "I understand."