HLnovel Chapter 676 I am here
Chapter 676 I am here
As Rong Xin spoke, her body began to tremble uncontrollably.
It was as if she had returned to that New Year's Eve. She ran out of the palace in thin clothes and arrived at the Duke of Rong's mansion. It was snowing heavily, but the ground of the mansion was red. The severed heads were still gushing blood.
Those were the lives of hundreds of people in the Rongguo Duke's mansion, not even sparing the young maids who worked in the kitchen.
The steward's grandson was two years old. She had helped deliver him during a difficult birth. He was born with a heart condition. He was tiny, with a pale face, purple lips, and wide-open eyes, as if he hadn't seen enough of the world yet.
Her shoes and socks sank into the blood, making her feet feel as heavy as if they weighed a ton. As she walked forward, her shoes fell off at some point, and she stepped barefoot into the blood. The snow on her feet was cold, but the blood beneath her feet was scalding hot, so hot that she could barely stand.
When she looked at the mutilated corpses scattered on the ground, her first thought was, what was it like when hundreds of thousands of soldiers and civilians in Chenzhou were slaughtered alive?
She studied medicine from a young age; both her parents were doctors. As a child, she had nowhere to go and spent most of her time sitting in the emergency room corridor, watching the suffering of countless people in this world, from birth to old age and death.
She wasn't afraid of dead people.
She also has a cousin who is a forensic doctor. During her college vacation, she studied with her cousin for a while. She could remain calm when dissecting dead people. Her cousin even joked that she had a good mentality and should change careers to become a forensic doctor.
She thought she would never be afraid. As a doctor, she always had awe for the human body and could never be afraid.
But that day, she was so scared.
I'm so scared.
She was so scared that countless voices flooded into her mind in an instant, making her feel like she was going to explode.
She didn't remember how she got back to the palace, nor what happened afterward. She seemed to have given birth to a child that night, but she couldn't recall it. What she could remember was that when she woke up in the middle of the night, she went to the candlestick and set a fire in her bedchamber.
Rong Xin turned to look at Wenren Jing: "I set a fire. I was transported here because someone died in the fire in the department. So at that time, the only thing I could think of was to set a fire, so that I might be able to go back."
"I want to go home."
When those few cold lines of text in the history book were laid bare before her, she realized that living in peaceful times, she would never, ever be able to truly integrate into this alternate dimension.
This is not her home.
Wenren Jing stepped forward, gently pulled her into his arms, and patted her back reassuringly.
“An Yan, you must first remember that you are An Yan, you are yourself first and foremost, and history is not something you can bear.”
"Whether you exist or not, whether you've ever been here or not, history will unfold according to its course. Zong Lin desired the throne from the very beginning. He may have considered a northern expedition, aiming to achieve great feats during his reign, but this was absolutely not something that could be done while Zong Huai was still alive. If Zong Huai hadn't died, he would never have wanted a northern expedition. The mind of an emperor is beyond your comprehension and understanding. Bringing you into the palace was a trap, using you as a hostage to maintain balance in the court. And with the defeat at Chenzhou, even if they had won that battle, the Duke of Rong wouldn't have returned. Zong Lin would never allow him to come back; that's inevitable, and it won't change because you're involved. Unless, of course, you are the one wielding the pieces. But you are merely a pawn in his power struggle, and you have no need to blame yourself for it."
“I’m late, An Yan. You are not alone in this time and space. I am here.”